Two diaries chronicling Anna Nicole Smith’s battle with depression and weight are coming up for auction. “I’ve been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can’t quit eating. I feel like a pig. Howard has been buying me some jewelry but he call me 15 or 20 times a day it drives me crazy. Regarding her wealthy husband J. Howard Marshall II she said, “I love him but he aggravates me sometimes.” As Marshall grew ill, Anna wrote: “He’s so very weak and fragile When I touch him I’m afraid he might break. If Jesus decides to take him I don’t no what I’ll do. I love him so much it hurts me to site and watch him when he’s hurting I just want to hold him touch him let him no how much I care.”
Anna also wrote about her stint as a Guess model and the pressure to be thin. “I’m starving!! I’ve been starving myself,” she confessed. The Playboy Playmate also revealed she took the over-the-counter weight-loss pill Zantrex in an entry dated June 13, 1992.