Kirsten Dunst s finally opening up about her 2008 stint in rehab for depression as she does press for the release of her new film All Good Things with Ryan Gosling, revealing that all was not so good a few years ago.
“I know what it’s like to lose yourself, to no longer know the difference between right or wrong,” Dunst told Black Book magazine while reliving her monthlong stay at Cirque Lodge rehab in Park City, Utah, a time in her life she also called “awful.” All Good Things was her first acting job after checking out.
One of the worst parts, she says, was dealing with rumors that her rehab stay was drug related. Worse still, her friends and family were forced to defend her from public speculation.
“On a personal level, I would talk to anybody about it, but not on a public level. If I do that, then the next person feels like they can ask me about it, and the person after that, until everyone feels entitled to ask me about it, and that’s not coming from a good place.”
But lemons, even in Hollywood, can make box office lemonade. Kirsten believes her depression actually helped her to connect with her character in All Good Things.
“I was ready to play something like that,” Dunst said. “I had been living on the surface, emotionally, and I was feeling really vulnerable, so I was prepared to do anything at that point.”
The actress refuses to go into depth about her treatment, saying that she doesn’t want the press to turn her struggle into salacious gossip material. “On a personal level, I would talk to anybody about it, but not on a public level,” she says bluntly. But one thing that Dunst doeswant people to know is that she was never an out-of-control partier. “When you’re a single girl in your twenties, yeah, you go out with your friends. And sometimes you drink too much,” she says in her own defense. “I don’t know anybody else, with any type of job, who doesn’t do that.” Today Dunst is doing well, with a rock star boyfriend (Rilo Kiley drummer Jason Boesel) and several high-profile movies lined up. And Dunst’s struggles in her twenties turned out to have a silver lining: they helped her prepare for this challenging new role, in which she plays the same character over the course of an abusive ten-year marriage. She describes the role as “amazingly cathartic.” “(My character) Katie had been torn down, and I know what it’s like to lose yourself, to no longer know the difference between right and wrong,” Dunst says. “I was ready to play something like that. I had been living life on the surface, emotionally, and I was feeling really vulnerable, so I was prepared to do anything at that point.”
All Good Things arrives in theaters on Thursday.